Whoops. I really have this very shallow and funny (well I thought it was fuuny) story.
There was this guy at McDo yesterday that I thought was very familiar. I didn't remember what his name was. All I know is that I've seen him somewhere. I started asking Krizzia and Elly if they knew who he was. They even told me that his face looks familiar. Anyway, I never really found out who he was that night.
A while ago, Jowee texted me. She was asking if JL (her promdate) and I were in the same review class? So, I pictured all of the guys in my class but none of them resembled the face of JL. Then all of a sudden it came to me. I remembered the familiar guy in McDo. IT WAS HIM! He was JL! NYAHAHAHAHAHA=))
Then, I disconnected myself from the internet and immediately called Krizzia! I called her up just to tell her that the familiar guy we saw was JL. Then we hung up.
So.. there goes my VERY shallow story. :)
speaking of shallow
I watched Shallow Hal this morning while eating Macaroni and Cheese. It was fun not to mention yummy (I was refering to the MacNCheese). I was able to watch Jack Black again. He's a really funny guy! I loved when he played Mr. S in School of Rock. Actually, I liked everything about that movie. From the music, to the humor, to the actors(and actresses) and up to everything about Freddie Jones. Hottie. NYAHAHA.
Anyway, I received a quote from Keavy about giving up and holding on. Let me type it down.
How long are you going to hold on?
How are you going to stay? How long are you gonna love?
When all you do is remind yourself of how much you love the person
and prove to others that you can make it
though the truth is... you're slowly giving up.
Then, it made me want to copy the Explanation of Letting Go on Maya's blog. I really had to copy it here. I thought it was a must so that I can be able to read and reflect (AGAIN).
An Explanation of Letting Go
The experience of love is an inner state. When this is present, you are happy, alive and free. You feel good about yourself and good about life. As you bring the experience of love into your life, life works effortlessly and great things happen.
The opposite of love is fear and upset. When this is present, you close down inside. You lose your creativity and your ability to see clearly. You get tunnel vision and you interact in a way that almost always makes your situation worse.
Whether you live in a state of love or a state of upset depends, not on your circumstances, but on how your relate to your circumstances. A good way to see this is to look at upsets.
Upsets seem to be caused by what happens but they're not. Upsets are caused by your fighting and resisting what happens. To see this in your life, select a recent upset. Now notice what would happen if somehow you were at peace with what happened. There would be no upset.
There would be no upset because upsets aren't caused by what happened. Upsets are caused by fighting and resisting what happened. The moment you take away the fighting and resisting, the upset disappears.
To live in the experience of love, and to create a life that works, you need to stop the fighting and resisting. You do this through a process called "letting go."
Letting go is the inner action that releases the fear and upset. The moment you let go, everything seems to change. With the fear and upset gone, you see your situation very differently. You become creative and discover solutions that you could never have seen before.
To let go, you need to do the opposite of fighting and resisting. You need to let go of your demands and expectations for how life should be and make peace with the way life is.
Find what you are resisting. Then give it full permission to be there. If you have a fear of losing a relationship, be willing to lose it. If you are resisting the way someone is, give the person full permission to be that way.
Be willing for anything. Set yourself free inside. Then take whatever action you need to have your life be great.
Keep in mind that letting go is a state of mind and has nothing to do with your actions. Letting go is the process that removes the fear and upset so you can see what action you need to take.
In your heart, you can be willing to lose someone, but in your actions, do everything you can to make sure the person feels so loved that he or she would never want to leave.
To make letting go a little easier, there are several steps you can take. The first is trusting. Trust that no matter what happens, you will be okay. When you know that you will be okay, letting go becomes relatively easy.
Trusting is also telling the truth. You really will be okay no matter what happens. Life is only threatening when you resist. So stop resisting and trust. Trust that no matter what happens, you will be okay.
The second step in the process of letting go is to be willing to feel your hurt. Be willing to feel all the hurt and the feelings of being not okay that your circumstances reactivate. Be willing to feel the hurt of being worthless or not good enough.
The avoidance of this hurt is what makes you resist. Once you are willing to feel this hurt, the need to resist disappears. You can then let go.
For example, Robert had a fear of losing his wife Jan. To make sure she didn't leave, he hung on to her. His hanging on then pushed her further and further away. Robert was afraid of losing Jan because if she left him, this would reactivate all his hurt of feeling not worth loving. To avoid this hurt. He hung on.
Once he was willing to feel his hurt, the loss of Jan ceased to be a treat. He no longer needed to hang on and became willing for her to leave. The moment this happened he changed the way he related to her. Instead of needing Jan, he started treasuring her. Jan then felt so loved and able to be herself, she didn't want to leave.
This is what happens in life. The more you are able to let go and flow with life, the more life takes care of itself. You may not always get what you want, but you can always be free inside. You can restore both your peace of mind and your effectiveness. You can create a life that works.
Well, that was LOOOONG.
I really wasn't able to elaborate more on what me and Bernice talked about the other night. Our focal point was just about one person. I really didn't agree to the whole part about talking about that person because I didn't want to remember such happy memories. Remembering those would make me sad and will eventually make me hate myself for being not appreciative of other people's efforts. Then, she kept mentioning to me to always have more effort in everything I do. Nice one, Berns. Everything was about the word EFFORT. Then, while on the verge of sharing to her how hard I can be and how much someone must have a BIG impact on me in order for me to fall for him/her, she mentioned about that person telling her about this: She told me she love me, I never felt it.
That was harsh. Made me cry inside and eventually the tears just rolled up my eyes and I had to say goodbye to Berns and we hung up.
Every ending of my entries, I always tell myself to cut the drama and move on! When in reality, I really can't. I try. But everytime I try, I'm just giving myself a hard time in looking for reasons to hate that person when I really can't think of any.
Why is it that everytime I try to forget, something happens and it makes me want to rewind everything all over again? I guess I really can't run away from this. I can't run away from the fact that I still love that person. That I regret everything I didn't do to make that person know that *he IS special.
Well, karma does really hit people BIG TIME. I didn't show ENOUGH appreciation and what do I get? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. And to top it all of, the one that's been making ALL THE EFFORTS was gone. I never had ---.
I can't lie anymore. I can't run away from this. I'm not okay.
Even though I try to grow up a couple of times, I really can't. Sometimes you just have to let it be. Let your feeling feel what you are feeling. When you hinder it, you may loose your mind. Look what happened to me. I'm as weird as I can be. I've lost it.
Let me face this by myself. (this time)
Drama mode. Not cool. | 
